I just hate this feeling of wanting to do things and needing to do them, but not being able to because I have no energy.

Today I went to my 5 hour long Sunday rehearsal for the musical in which we were to do all of Act 1. I hadn't been out of the house longer then a couple of hours since I started resting at home. I was fine at the start, having had a meal and some rest before going, but by the time we got to the end of scene 9 (of 11) and had to go home because I couldn't stand up!

I've told my director that I'll be fine for the performances but things like this have really shaken my confidence. Under no circumstances can I pull out, but I just hope and pray I can pull it off and still have energy for school. In fact, I'm missing another week of school to keep resting and I don't really want to think about missing all the crucial discussions and hint sessions that we have in classes, especially english.

Hopefully, I'll be ready to tackle school next Monday. It's my 18th birthday on Friday and I want to be ok enough to not worry and have a nice dinner with the famdamily and the boy.

Wish me luck for regaining energy. It's certainly not easy going!